Wednesday, November 1, 2006

Excitement and Enticement - Entry for November 1, 2006

Don't ask me why or how or when or (et cetera), but I've been feeling happy. The last few days have not been as depressing. The gaping, achey wound that is my heart has not been so bad. I feel better than I have in a long time. I dunno know if it will last, but it sure feels damn good. When I walk around the office, I am not jealous of other's happiness anymore. I hated that feeling. I hated walking around with that hole in my chest and wondering why no one could see my pain.

It's not like it was a secret at work anyway. There are people there who would empathize. But it was not their place to ride this roller-coaster ride with me (more like ship in a tempest).

Back to the happiness -I've been giddy and happy, flirtacious and generally cool with things. Nothing seems to daunting at the moment.

The only thing that brings me down is not having someone to truly share it with. I would not want to share it with my ex for anything in the world. But I know laying next to someone, laying on my side and looking at them while I talk, maybe hugging, would truly be nice.

<=== does the guinea pig hop-skippity dance anyway ===>

I have to post my guinea pigs hopping someday.

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