There seems to be an attempt at the start of the New Year to resolve to be different. To change oneself into something better. My friend Josh wrote this huge list of things he is resolving, and there are several on his list that I could rightfully put on mine. I guess I am afraid of writing down everything I need to work on. This year, more than any time in my life, has been filled with change. These changes have made it glaringly apparent that I need to change my outlook on life and on myself.
I put myself down all the time. Sometimes without thinking about it. I have an orchestra of insults that I use to describe myself, and I downplay my talents and strengths. I don't know why I do this nor how to stop it. I can stop saying them out loud I suppose, but what to quiet the thoughts I have?
I bought a book recently that is supposed to help me work out some of my issues.