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OBSERVATION: We have evolved to hunger for things and power for survival just as a zombie hungers for a juicy brain. Our weaknesses are just an evolution of our animalistic and base tendencies. Making our lives simpler does not remove them - just reduces their impact on other people. However, I take comfort that our humanity is also marked by compassion and empathy and makes being a human worthwhile -- even amidst all of the ugliness of the world. I have pride, I lust, I want (as opposed to need), but I also love, cry with friends, and care what happens to humans who have no impact on my life.



60 Awesome Portraits Of Gay Couples Just Married In New York State

Is this what makes the Far Right so threatened? Could these faces alight in pure joy truly make some Christians fear for their marriages and their souls? To deny this joy and fellowship to these couples should be a crime. Congratulations to all those beautiful couples in NY. ♥ Images via AP


Background In November 2009, I started experiencing pain in the middle of my right buttock. It would start really late in the day, and I would just go to bed at that point and wake up fine the next morning. Over the next few weeks, the pain would start earlier in the evening until it would happen at work. I would take an over-the-counter (OTC) pain reliever and feel some relief. In December 2009 and January 2010, the pain began to curl down the back of my right thigh and my toes started tingling. Laying down, walking around, and taking an OTC would give me some relief. So would going to sleep. In January, I woke up and I was already in pain, and that is what prompted me to see my primary care physician (PCP). My PCP said that I had the symptoms of sciatica and prescribed me neural medicine and a non-narcotic pain medicine. They didn't really help, so after a few weeks, he prescribed me some ibuprofen and submitted an authorization for me to get an x-ray and physical therapy.


A couple of people lately have commented on how lucky and how good my life is.  I don't disagree with them in sentiment.  I AM lucky and my life IS good, but it is simply a matter of outlook.  I choose to be happy with what I have, and put in hard work to have everything else. 1.   Job. I have a great job, but I work long hours and work my butt off to accomplish everything expected of me.  I am salaried, so even though I worked almost 8 hours overtime last week, I'm not getting any more money for it. It doesn't matter that I'm often the last one out of the office.   I don't care because I am proud of the quality of my work.  It shows, and THAT's why I continue to have this great job. 2.  Money. Great job aside, I still live paycheck to paycheck.  Some months are easier than others. I have hospital bills, student loans, loans I took out while I was in that hospital, car loan, insurance, rent, etc. etc.  I know the reasons WHY I live paycheck to paycheck, and

Life is so good

DECLARATION: Life is so good. I have two gorgeous, intelligent boys, great friends and family, a wonderful boyfriend, a demanding career, and I'm finally getting fit and healthy. Happy Vanessa is totally tamping down fearful Vanessa's anxious waiting-for-the-axe-to-fall mentality.