Showing posts from March, 2014

Autism: Forgiving Myself

EXPOSITION. Most of my friends and family know that Eleazar has autism. For those that don't, now you do. Eleazar has been in speech therapy, occupational therapy, and special day classes since he turned 4 years old. When he was 4, he tested as a 2-year old in terms of his conversational abilities and was diagnosed with severe languages disorder. Fast forward to 2014, and he is in his final year of resource classes before getting transitioned to regular classes and might be in his last year of speech therapy. It has been quite the journey -- and there is still a lot more to do. In that light, I'm not sure how the following news makes me feel. Researchers at the Autism Center of Excellence, Department of Neuroscience, University of California, San Diego, School of Medicine have conclusively linked that children with autism have genetic abnormalities in their brains. There has been a nature/nurture debate for years on the causes of autism, and this firmly puts that nurture

Musing on Perfection: L'Wren Scott

OBSERVATION. Every day I fight the need for perfection. When I was a child, there was this pervasive belief that if I was just smarter, thinner, friendlier, or smiled more that things would be better. There wasn't a real end goal. I just wanted to feel happier and loved -- but I always came up short and nothing was ever good enough. Picture credit:  GoRunway/Indigital I'm in my 30s now. I still push myself hard and failures in any aspect of my life take a huge toll, but I feel loved and cherished by my husband, friends, and family.  I don't need to be perfect. However, reading a few articles on the death of L'Wren Scott, fashion designer, Amazon, and self-professed perfectionist, I see the end result of someone who couldn't stop striving for that goal -- and I'm taking full note of it. I will continue to make mistakes and fall short of my own expectations, but I have to recognize that I'm still very good at what I do, I'm always striving to b